In this candid and moving memoir, John W. Evans articulates the
complicated joys of falling in love again as a young widower.
Though heartbroken after his wife's violent death, Evans realizes
that he cannot remain inconsolable and adrift, living with
his in-laws in Indiana. Motivated by a small red X on a map,
Evans musters the courage for a cross-country trip. From the
Badlands to Yellowstone to the foothills of the Sierra Mountains,
Evans's hope and determination propel him even as he contemplates
his vulnerability and the legacy of a terrible tragedy.Should I
Still Wish chronicles Evans's efforts to leave an intense year of
grief behind, to make peace with the natural world again, and to
reconnect with a woman who promises, like San Francisco itself, a
life of abundance and charm. With unflinching honesty Evans plumbs
the uncertainties, doubts, and contradictions of a paradoxical
experience in this love story, celebration of fatherhood,
meditation on the afterlife of grief and resilience, and,
ultimately, showcase for life's many profound incongruities.
